JAYSTARR:HIStory

Mom’s going to the Emergency Room again tonight. :(

Should be interesting. :)

Mom’s being admitted to the hospital. She has to stay overnight.. I still don’t know what’s wrong. Ugh..

:(((

My mom’s blood pressure was 228/161, and she was refusing to go to the hospital. She was crying, saying “No.. I can’t go to the hospital.. I have to go to work..” As tears were rolling down her face as she begged not to go, I felt a heavy pain in my chest. I wanted to die. I feel like such a let down. She is breaking her back just to provide shelter for food for me, and I can’t even find a job. I just want to be able to provide for her. I don’t want her to be working so hard just so we can live a normal life. I want to be able to give her more than she could ever give me. Why is this pain so heavy? I know I should be focused on school and getting my degree, but when my mom was refusing to go to the hospital, and my godmother was saying things like, “Do you want to wake up paralyzed?” or “Do you want to wake up dead?”, my heart began sinking lower. I don’t know what to do. I’m sitting here bawling my eyes out, praying for the best. She finally went to the hospital. I don’t care if she has to be hospitalized, or if she’s just getting medication, the pain is so heavy right now, and I want things to get better. So if you guys could please keep my mom in your prayers, it would mean the world to me.

lol. @jsmob